You Can't Stop What's Coming

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You Can't Stop What's Coming

The Academy Awards

Well, the Academy Awards, the highlight of my life, has come and gone. And I think we had a really good year. Some pretty amazing films came out, and many of them got recognized by the highest honour the movie industry can offer. I always like it when things work out almost the way you want.

Acting Awards:

Performance by an actor in a leading role -

  • Richard Jenkins in “The Visitor”
  • Frank Langella in “Frost/Nixon”
  • Sean Penn in “Milk” (Focus Features)
  • Brad Pitt in “The Curious Case of Benjamin Button”
  • Mickey Rourke in “The Wrestler”
This one really suprised me. I thought Mickey Rourke had it in the bag. But I was so happy for Sean Penn, because his performance in Milk was truly a revelation. This was an amazing year for lead actors all across the board.

Performance by an actor in a supporting role -

  • Josh Brolin in “Milk”
  • Robert Downey Jr. in “Tropic Thunder”
  • Philip Seymour Hoffman in “Doubt”
  • Heath Ledger in “The Dark Knight”
  • Michael Shannon in “Revolutionary Road”
My god, what a year for supporting roles! Even though we all knew who this one was going to go to, it was still a really tough category. Every single actor here deserved the award, I can't think of one performance that was better than another. If The Dark Knight hadn't come out this year, my money is on Michael Shannon. He only had 2 scenes in Revolutionary Road, but he made that movie. This was a damn good year, and we had some fine performances.

Performance by an actress in a leading role

  • Anne Hathaway in “Rachel Getting Married”
  • Angelina Jolie in “Changeling”
  • Melissa Leo in “Frozen River”
  • Meryl Streep in “Doubt”
  • Kate Winslet in “The Reader”
Another amazing category. Last year wasn't really a very fruitful year for lead female performances, it was a little lackluster. But this year more than makes up for it. This was a very strong year for the ladies. And Kate Winslet is one of the greatest, if not the greatest, actress working today, and she deserved this award. I mean, she got both Golden Globes, the SAG award, and a whole mess of others I can't even think of. I would have thrown a fit if she didn't win!

Performance by an actress in a supporting role

  • Amy Adams in “Doubt”
  • Penélope Cruz in “Vicky Cristina Barcelona”
  • Viola Davis in “Doubt”
  • Taraji P. Henson in “The Curious Case of Benjamin Button”
  • Marisa Tomei in “The Wrestler”
This one was a suprise for me as well. Of course the award went to the one movie in this category I didn't see! But this was an amazing year for supprorting performances for female's as well. Doubt has some of the greatest combined performances I have ever seen contained in one movie, and I really thought Viola Davis had this one down. I was actually sort of secretly rooting for Marisa Tomei, because she's so great in The Wrestler. But I love Penelope Cruz, and I'm sure I will be impressed by her when I get around to seeing Vicky Christina Barcelona.

"Behind the Scenes" Awards

Achievement in cinematography

  • Changeling” Tom Stern
  • The Curious Case of Benjamin Button” Claudio Miranda
  • The Dark Knight” Wally Pfister
  • The Reader”  Chris Menges and Roger Deakins
  • Slumdog Millionaire”  Anthony Dod Mantle
I was really glad that Slumdog got this one. That movie was so beautifuly filmed. It's very much in keeping with how Danny Boyle's films are shot, very fast paced and almost frantic. Not nearly to the degree of 28 Days Later, but it's still there and it's done very well. This is a category that may not be important to most people, but it means a lot to me.

Adapted screenplay

  • The Curious Case of Benjamin Button” Screenplay by Eric Roth, Screen story by Eric Roth and Robin Swicord
  • Doubt” , Written by John Patrick Shanley
  • Frost/Nixon” , Screenplay by Peter Morgan
  • The Reader” , Screenplay by David Hare
  • Slumdog Millionaire” ,Screenplay by Simon Beaufoy
The screenplay categories are two of the most important categories to me. I so appreciate and love the writing process of films, so I keep an eye out for the good screenplays. I was, of course, very happy for Slumdog, even though I didn't get to read the book or whatever the screenplay is based on.

Original screenplay

  • Frozen River”, Written by Courtney Hunt
  • Happy-Go-Lucky” ,Written by Mike Leigh
  • In Bruges” ,Written by Martin McDonagh
  • Milk” , Written by Dustin Lance Black
  • WALL-E” , Screenplay by Andrew Stanton, Jim Reardon, Original story by Andrew Stanton, Pete Docter
This was a really good category, in my opinion. I was thrilled to see In Bruges and Wall-E nominated. In Bruges was brilliantly written, and I'm glad it got recognized for it. And Wall-E isn't the kind of movie you would think would get nominated for its screenplay, but it is written very well. Even though Wall-E and Eve only say each other's names, so much of their interaction is communication without words, and that isn't easy to write. I was thrilled that it went to Milk, a beautifully written film. The dialogue in that movie is so inspiring and Dustin Lance Black's acceptance speech was so nice. This was a good one.

Achievement in directing

  • The Curious Case of Benjamin Button”  David Fincher
  • Frost/Nixon”  Ron Howard
  • Milk” Gus Van Sant
  • The Reader”  Stephen Daldry
  • Slumdog Millionaire” Danny Boyle
My god, what a year for directing! Other than best picture, this is the most meaningful category to me in all of the Academy Awards. Some of the most worthy and amazing work I have seen in a long time has come up here. Every single director nominated is someone who's work I love, and who I wanted to win. It was so hard to choose who to root for, I mean really hard. But I was so happy for Danny Boyle I could have exploded. He is such a great filmmaker and to see him finally get his props was wonderful. I hope he gets even more attention in the future. Great category, great year.

Best motion picture of the year

  • The Curious Case of Benjamin Button” (Paramount and Warner Bros.), A Kennedy/Marshall Production, Kathleen Kennedy, Frank Marshall and Ceán Chaffin, Producers
  • Frost/Nixon” (Universal), A Universal Pictures, Imagine Entertainment and Working Title Production, Brian Grazer, Ron Howard and Eric Fellner, Producers
  • Milk” (Focus Features), A Groundswell and Jinks/Cohen Company Production, Dan Jinks and Bruce Cohen, Producers
  • The Reader” (The Weinstein Company), A Mirage Enterprises and Neunte Babelsberg Film GmbH Production, Anthony Minghella, Sydney Pollack, Donna Gigliotti and Redmond Morris, Producers
  • Slumdog Millionaire” (Fox Searchlight), A Celador Films Production, Christian Colson, Producer

What can I say? We had such a good year, and I'm sorry that only five of all the amazing films that came out this year could be nominated. Every single movie here deserved it, and nobody deserved it more than Slumdog. I like it when a little movie gets it's props. This was a movie made by first time actors, that didn't get much advertising, that didn't get much distribution, it didn't get that much attention. But it doesn't matter how much attention, or money, or special effects a movie has, none of that matters. A little, simple movie like this can recieve the highest honour that a movie can get, and that makes me happy. Go Slumdog, you rule!

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You Can't Stop What's Coming

The movies I've seen (and plan to see)

You know, what you've got ain't nothing new. This country's hard on people. You can't stop what's coming, it ain't all waiting on you. That's vanity. - No Country for Old Men

So far, over this break, I have seen three films. I plan on seeing at least three more.


The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

Plan to see:

The Wrestler
Gran Torino
Slumdog Millionaire

I really want to see Frost/Nixon, but either it's only been out in limited release this whole time, or it just hasn't gone wide yet. I'm afraid I might have missed it, which bums me out to no end. I also really want to see Revolution Road, which I think opens wide on the 23rd. I go back to school on the 20th, so that doesn't help me any. I hate limited release. It pisses me off that just because I don't live in NYC or LA I should have to wait longer to see a movie. Just release the damn thing already! That's all I have to say.
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Home free...

"I'm sorry I couldn't protect you. I should have been there, I am always going to regret just not being there. I miss your faces. How they remind me of God. I'm so lost without you guys." - Lady in the Water

I'm home, for longer than a week this time. I'm home free for an entire month. I think I've earned it, I made it through my first semester of college in one piece and with some pretty kick-ass grades. And now I can live my life for a little while. I wonder what I'll do with myself.

It's odd, I should be happy to be home, I am happy to be home. But I'm also really bummed, I have been all day. I woke up this morning after a night of almost no sleep ( I could not sleep for the life of me). And it was my last 12 hour day, I should be overjoyed right? But all day long I've been so, not quite depressed, but pretty close. I think it's just that I'm really sad that my classes are ending, I actually do like them. My teachers were good to me, I love the work that I have done in those classes. And most of all, I'm going to miss the people that were in those classes with me. I know, we'll still be going to school together, and maybe we'll have some classes together next semester, but most likely we'll be split up. What you have to understand is that I share all three of my major studio classes with the same 15 people, more or less. I see them every day, and I have grown to respect and admire their work and their individual talents. This is a relatively small conservatory, there are only a handful of us freshmen, and we get attached to each other. At least I get attached. I'll miss them all, I've really grown to like them and their art. I really hope I see at least a few familiar faces next semester.

Well, I think I'm gonna kick back and enjoy my month off. I plan on going to the movies. A lot.
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Almost time to go back

I'm going home for Thanksgiving break tomorrow, I've been at school for almost three months now. Where did all that time go? Where have I been? Time really does fly. Soon I'll be back in my own bed, in my own house, with my own family, and I'll see my friends again. I'll be back in my old life, even if it's just for a week. My RA once said that the first time you go back home when you've been at school is like being in a parallel universe. I really hope that isn't true, at least not for me. Maybe it'll be like coming home from Vietnam, nobody knows what you've been through and they don't know what to say. I engadge in hyperbole. but you see my point. I'm crossing my fingers.

My roommate is spending the vacation with me and my family. She's from texas, and she can't afford the plane ticket she would need to fly home, and even if she did, I don't think going all the way back to Texas for only a week and then flying back again would be worth it. I invited her to come stay with me. Her mother is very grateful, I spoke with her on the phone and she thanked me profusely. I really don't mind letting her come home with me, we get along just fine, and if I were a mother, I would want someone to do that for my daughter. I'm sure we'll have a nice break. I'm getting my hair done and I'm getting a new tattoo, which I'm psyched about. Even if I had no plans whatsoever, I would still be excited. I think everyone here needs to go home and chill for a while, we're all kind of tense and cranky. It'll be nice to get away.

It's kind of weird how close to the end of my first semester of college I am. I'm amazed that I have made it this far into my college education. I haven't had any major psychotic episodes or or flipped out and tried to hitchhike my way home. Good for me *pats self on back.* Let's see if I can get through the next few weeks, I know I can. But for now, I'll just enjoy my Thanksgiving.
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It's been a long time...

"I felt like putting a bullet between the eyes of every panda that wouldn't screw to save it's species. I wanted to open the dump valves of oil tankers and smother all the French beachers I'd never see. I wanted to breathe smoke." - Fight Club

Hello all, it's been a long time. I know. I've been a busy girl, leaving my home, my family, my friends, and my life behind to go to college here at glorious SUNY Purchase. Life is good here, for the most part. A lot of work, the good kind. The kind that gives you the comfort of knowing you are doing what you love and what you want because you can. So many people don't make it this far, so many people would love to be in my shoes. And whenever I'm feeling down, I can think about some hopeless Wal-Mart employee who is dreaming of furthering their education and becoming something great. Because that person would love to be me. 

So I'm going to do it. Study, learn, try my hardest. I didn't come here to party, I came here to work. And I'm not going to waste my parents money. Many people think that college changes a person, but if they're strong, they'll still be themselves. And I'm not easily influenced, even though I'm young. I won't always want to be here, there will be times when I'll be ready to throw in the towel because I'm tired, because I'm lonely, or because I'm so homesick I can't stand it. But mommy can't come pick me up and take me back to my old life, that part of it is over. 

No more crying. No more being sad. I'm here now and that's the way it's going to stay. 


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The Knight is Darkest just before the dawn...

"Some men aren't looking for anything logical. They can't be bought, bullied, reasoned or negotiated with. Some men just want to watch the world burn." - The Dark Knight  

I just read an article on about rabid Batman fans staying up all night to see The Dark Knight. The article predicted that work attendance would be down dramatically today as well as sales of Starbucks Coffee. Well, I'm now proud to say that I am one of those people. I have recently woken up after no more than a few hours of sleep, unusual since I was in a movie theater for about four hours until an ungodly time in the morning. But dammit, it was worth it! I have never had a more exciting or moving experience in a movie theater, not that I can recall. I sat in a theater where every single seat was full, at least twelve people were dressed up as characters in the film and there were people going up and down the isles handing out free Batman paraphernalia. And this was all before the previews even started. The audience, myself included, clapped and cheered when the film began and the Bat Symbol pushed forward through tongues of blue fire. The audience, myself included, clapped and cheered after Heath Ledgers first brilliant scene in the film. And the audience, myself included, gave a standing ovation when the The Dark Knight was over. I haven't experienced a film in such a way before, when people are there not to socialize with their friends, not to kill a few hours because they're bored, but to go to a film because it means something to them. I'm no comic book fan or Batman expert, I just love a good movie, but even there, I felt as if I was among friends. 

The Dark Knight is a masterpiece for almost everyone who was involved in making it. It is director Christopher Nolan's best film to date, and I have seen almost all of his work. It is, in my opinion, on of Christen Bale's best performances, if not the best. The film is also a showcase for Aaron Eckhart, who I have seen mostly in comedic roles. But we all know where I'm going with this. Heath Ledger is the reason this film works so well. He carries it on his shoulders. His performance was a revelation, for movie villains and just for acting in general. He dominates the film, but not in the way you might think. He's not in every scene, a lot of the film happens without him. He's there just enough so that we have this eerie sense of foreboding about the film. The Joker is always around the corner. Looking at the previews for the film, I was expecting Ledger's performance to be completely over the top. Not in a bad way, in an "appropriate for superhero movie villain" kind of way. But what I actually saw surprised me. The Joker is a man in a purple suit with a face covered in clown makeup, yet he isn't a character who is ranting and raving and acting like a lunatic. He's crazy, there's no doubt about it, but Heath Ledger plays it very subtly. All we need is to hear that sick, disturbed, Joker laugh echoing in our ears once or twice and we get the point. He has a few monologue scenes in the film that I wish I could have written down because they affected me so deeply. Ledger's scenes are not long or draw out, but they are there, and they are part of the reason the film is great. This is a performance that will be Heath Ledgers legacy, and people are going to remember it and talk about it and study it in film schools for years to come. 

I'm definitely going to see The Dark Knight a second time, first because my father had to work today and wasn't ready to be one of thousands of people taking the day off today, and second because I just want to see it again. There are films that you can see once and in that one viewing you can get all that you need from it. Then there are other films that you can watch a thousand times and still be amazed at how much it affects you.

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Hellboy II - The Golden Army

"What are you looking so miserable about? There's a whole ocean of oil under our feet. No one can get at it except for me." - There Will Be Blood

I went to the mall today, I bought shoes for my job at the track, new headphones, and I went to see Hellboy II. I love the first Hellboy, and more importantly I love Gulliermo Del Toro, the director of the film. He is one of the few directors in Hollywood who has true, real, vision and sticks to it no matter what. In all of his films he creates visuals and characters that are exotic and beautifully crafted. Pan's Labyrinth is one of my favorite movies of all time, I really liked Blade II as well as the original Hellboy. I really want to see another one of his Spanish films The Devils Backbone. I enjoyed the new Hellboy as well. Even if you hate the plot, the characters, and the script, the film is so visually impressive that it is worth seeing. I don't usually tell people to go see a movie just because it's pretty to look at, but Hellboy is a whole different kind of pretty. It's Guillermo Del Toro pretty. And I just love the character of Hellboy. He's funny, he has his quirks (he likes kittens, Baby Ruth bars, and cuban cigars), and he has cool friends. Other than Hellboy, my favorite character is Abe Sapien, the polite, well spoken, telepathic sea creature. His eyes blink sideways, it's fun to watch. There is one scene in the film where he and Hellboy get drunk and start singing Barry Manalow, it's hysterical. I also really like Selma Blair's character Liz, who has the power of flame. Her and Hellboy make a cute and endearing couple. The creatures in the film are really interesting. There are "tooth faries", which are not as pleasant as they sound, and an angel of death, who has wings with eyes in them. That's one thing about Guillermo, he loves to put eyes in strange places.

I will be attending the midnight showing of The Dark Knight on Thursday (or technically Friday), and I have invited my dear friend Jess to come along with me. I like midnight showings, the last (and only) one I went to was for King Kong. This one will be even better because I'm taking a friend as well as going with my family and I don't have school the next day. I'm really excited for this film, critics are comparing it to crime drama's like The Departed, Heat, and The Untouchables. Richard Roper compared Heath Ledgers joker to that of Alex in Stanley Kubrick's A Clockwork Orange. These are pretty bold statements, not to be made offhand or taken lightly. This is going to be one huge movie, not only because it's good (which I know it will be), but because of peoples loyalty to Heath Ledger. This film will be his legacy.
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Sleepless Night...

"Hey Pam, remember how I said this car is death proof? Well that wasn't a lie, this car is a hundred percent death proof. But in order to get the full benefit of it honey, you really need to be sitting in my seat" - Death Proof

Yeah, I can't sleep. I've been trying to since 8:00, and it's almost midnight, so I've been tossing and turning in bed for about four hours now. There are few things in life I hate more than not being able to sleep. My freshmen orientation for Purchase is begins tomorrow, and my mother and I have to leave the house by 6 AM, so I was planning to wake up around 4:30. But I have a powerful feeling that this will not be the case. I'm one of those people who needs their sleep, and once I'm awake, I need to be awake. I would rather stay up all night than run on only four hours of sleep. Yes, yes, I know it makes no sense at all. I can never find any discernable reason for why I can't sleep, but it usually happens before a big event, like the first day of school. It's never been like this though, I can usually get to sleep eventually, but not this time. I don't know if it's because I'm excited or I'm nervous. The last time I visited Purchase I met a really nice girl, she gave me her email and phone number. We've chatted via email since then, but tomorrow is the first time I'll have seen her since April. So, I'm really excited to see her again.
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Watching Star Wars

"I am the Devil, and I am here to do the Devil's work" - The Devil's Rejects

For one reason or another, yesterday I was inspired to watch all of the Star Wars movies, both old and new. I had only seen the original 1977 Star Wars until then. But I wanted to watch them in Episode order, Episode I first, then Episode II, and so on in that fashion. It is really interesting watching them that way. I've never been one of those insane, die-hard, Star Wars fans, not because I didn't think the movies were any good, I just never took the time to sit down and watch them. I remember so clearly when Episode I came out, I was only 9 years old. My Mother took my sister, my two cousins Kyle and Quinn, and myself to the movies one day where it was playing. Chloe, Kyle and Quinn saw Star Wars, Mom and I saw Runaway Bride. I had never had the occasion to watch that movie from that day forward, until yesterday. I always thought that was kind of funny. So, I have watched Episodes I, II, and III so far, and here's what I think of them:

Episode I: The Phantom Menace -  One thing can be said about this film with 100% certainty - it should be against the law for George Lucas to write dialogue. I'm not joking when I say the dialogue in this movie is atrocious. I'm not using that word lightly here, I chose it for a reason. The dialogue is so clunky, awkward, bland, flat and dry. It's as if Lucas only had a basic, first draft of the script but decided to shoot the movie anyway. It made the movie so hard to enjoy because it was so damn distracting. It's really too bad because the movie is extremely well made, the visuals are stunning (even for 1999). The best thing about the film is the story, it can push through the terrible dialogue and make the movie worth watching. To see the little boy who will become Darth Vader is a very powerful thing. 

Episode II: Attack of the Clones - Now, I liked this one a lot more than Episode I, but the film is still stunted by that horrible writing. I can't be totally sure, but I think it's even worse this time around. But once again, the story can rise above all of that, most of the time. Here, Anikin is all grown up (at age 19), and he falls in love with Senator Padme. Now, the love story between these two makes for good plot, but would have been so much better if they had something even remotely interesting or romantic to say to each other. The exchanges between them are almost painful to listen to becuse they are so cliched and badly written. But like with the first film, Attack of the Clones is well made and the special effects are beautifully done. 

Episode III: Revenge of the Sith - Finally, we've got something here. After two near epic failures, the saga comes full circle. While this film is not perfect, it is infinitely better than the previous two. The huge problem of dialogue that plagued Episodes I and II is not nearly as present here. Don't get me wrong, I will put the money up myself to pay for a decent writer for these movies, but the dialogue here is much better, it doesn't hurt me to listen to it, which is good. And even if it did, the sheer power of the mythology of this film would be enough to redeem it. To see a young man who could have become the greatest Jedi ever become the very thing he swore to fight against, to see him destroy everything he ever loved, is something I have not seen before. It's interesting that Lucas was able to create suspense when we as an audience already know the outcome. We know that Anikin will become Darth Vader, but all the way we hope that he'll come to his senses. When he gets down on his knees and pledges to be a Darth, I was shouting at the screen "no Ani, don't do it, you have so much to live for."

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